I have disappeared. I will acknowledge that.
I don’t post on my blog
Respond to emails
Call my friends back
Return my students quizzes the next day
Do basic chores
I don’t exist or function as a human being.
My friends call me a Blissed-Out Bride.
I’ve turned into the worst cliché.
Now I’m not here to excuse myself, but rather explain.
I think I’m functioning.
I think I’m responding
I think I’m being responsible
I think I’m still all here.
But looking at my performance of the last month objectively…I’m not.
The thing is I THINK I am.
It’s not intentional. I want to do all the things I’m supposed to do; I mean to do it. I really mean to write, to call you back, but the time just disappears and I didn’t do anything, but space out.
It’s the weirdest phenomena.
And even weirder is how not me this whole thing is. I’m not the googly-eyed, gushing, glowing, giggly type. I’m the analytical, unemotional, detached, logical type.
My behavior goes against all my principles.
And it’s a great thing.
My apologies again. J